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טוט אַ שלײַדער מיך צום בעט און דעקט מיך צו,

Flings me to the bed and covers me,

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Page 121. 'In the Wakeful Hour' conclusion: Sleep flings the speaker to bed and covers him; only then does he hear the beloved calling 'where are you?' All night she sits chained to her chair, calling without waking him. At dawn her call falls silent — that silence frightens him awake. But all is already over: hasty feet chase out, only the wine glass stands full and the empty chair rocks. The beloved as ghost visitor who departs at dawn. 'Sharp Pains' (Sharfe Veytikn): A poem of extreme masochism rooted in Leivick's prison experience. Sharp pains have drawn the speaker; he begs: cut out my eyes, tear out my tongue. Boring to live this way. He remembers being beaten with rods, while a second and third prisoner waits their turn. Thrown into the cellar, he hears his own lips say: 'I want new sufferings, come quickly.' In hope for new sufferings he lies cradled, his lips speaking: 'Smile to your kingdom, blessed one.' Suffering as the only realm the prisoner can rule.

Yiddish Original

טוט אַ שלײַדער מיך צום בעט און דעקט מיך צו,

דאַן דערהער איך ערשט: דו רופֿסט — וואו ביסטו, וואו?

אין דער פֿינצטערניש אַלײן, צום שטול געשמידט,

זיצסטו אָפּ די נאַכט און רופֿסט, — דערוועקסט מיך ניט.

אַז עס גרויט דער נײַער טאָג, ווערט שטום דײַן רוף,

יענע שטומעניש דערשרעקט און וועקט מיך אויף.

ווי איך עפֿן נאָר אַן אויג איז אַלץ שוין אויס —

האַסטיק, הער איך, יאָגן פֿיס פֿון שטוב אַרויס.

אָנגעגאָסן שטייט מיט ווײַן דאָס גלעזל פֿול,

וויגט זיך נאָך פֿון ראַשן שטעל דער לערער שטול.

שאַרפֿע ווייטיקן

שאַרפֿע ווייטיקן — זיי האָבן מיך געצויגן

און דערפֿאַר בין איך צו דיר געקומען;

שנײַד אַרויס פֿון שטערן מײַנע אויגן

רײַס אַרויס מײַן צונג מיר פֿונעם גומען.

לאַנגווײַליק איז מיר אַזוי צו לעבן.

איך דערמאָן זיך רגעס: — שמיץ פֿון ריטער

בלוטיקן דאָס לײַב, און דאָ דערנעבן

שטייט און וואַרט אַ צווייטער און אַ דריטער.

אַלע ווערן מיר דערנאָך געטראָגן

און אַרײַנגעוואָרפֿן אין דער טיף אין קעלער, —

הער איך ווי די ליפּן מײַנע זאָגן:

— נײַע לײַדן וויל איך. קומט וואָס שנעלער.

אין דער האָפֿענונג אויף נײַע לײַדן

ליג איך אויפֿן דיל אַן אײַנגעוויגטער,

הער איך ווי די ליפּן מײַנע רעדן:

— שמייכל צו דײַן קעניגרײַך, באַגליקטער.

Transliteration

Tut a shlayder mikh tsum bet un dekt mikh tsu,

dan derher ikh ersht: du rufst — vu bistu, vu?

In der fintsternish aleyn, tsum shtul geshmidet,

zitstu op di nakht un rufst, — dervekst mikh nit.

Az es groyt der nayer tog, vert shtum dayn ruf,

yene shtumenish dershrekht un vekht mikh oyf.

Vi ikh efn nor an oyg iz alts shoyn oys —

hastik, her ikh, yogn fis fun shtub aroys.

Ongegosn shteyt mit vayn dos glezl ful,

vigt zikh nokh fun rashn shtel der leerer shtul.

Sharfe Veytikn

Sharfe veytikn — zey hobn mikh getsoygn

un derfar bin ikh tsu dir gekumen;

shnayd aroys fun shtern mayne oygn

rays aroys mayn tsung mir funem gumen.

Langvaylik iz mir azoy tsu lebn.

Ikh dermon zikh reges: — shmits fun riter

blutikn dos layb, un do dernebn

shteyt un vart a tsveyter un a driter.

Ale vern mir dernokh getrogn

un arayngеvоrfn in der tif in keler, —

her ikh vi di lipn mayne zogn:

— Naye laydn vil ikh. Kumt vos shneler.

In der hofеnung oyf naye laydn

lig ikh oyfn dil an ayngеvigter,

her ikh vi di lipn mayne redn:

— Shmeykhel tsu dayn kenigraykh, baglikter.

English Translation

Flings me to the bed and covers me,

then I first hear: you call — where are you, where?

In the darkness alone, chained to the chair,

you sit out the night and call — you don't wake me.

When the new day dawns, your call grows mute,

that muteness frightens and wakes me.

As I open just an eye, all is already over —

hastily, I hear, feet chase out of the house.

Filled with wine the full glass stands,

the empty chair still rocks from the quick rising.

Sharp Pains

Sharp pains — they have drawn me

and therefore I have come to you;

cut out from my forehead my eyes

tear out my tongue from my palate.

Boring is it for me to live like this.

I remember moments: — blows from rods

bloodied the body, and here nearby

stands and waits a second and a third.

We are all afterward carried

and thrown into the deep into the cellar —

I hear how my lips say:

— New sufferings I want. Come quickly.

In the hope for new sufferings

I lie on the floor cradled,

I hear how my lips speak:

— Smile to your kingdom, blessed one.

TRANSLATOR’S NOTE

Page 121. 'In the Wakeful Hour' conclusion: Sleep flings the speaker to bed and covers him; only then does he hear the beloved calling 'where are you?' All night she sits chained to her chair, calling without waking him. At dawn her call falls silent — that silence frightens him awake. But all is already over: hasty feet chase out, only the wine glass stands full and the empty chair rocks. The beloved as ghost visitor who departs at dawn. 'Sharp Pains' (Sharfe Veytikn): A poem of extreme masochism rooted in Leivick's prison experience. Sharp pains have drawn the speaker; he begs: cut out my eyes, tear out my tongue. Boring to live this way. He remembers being beaten with rods, while a second and third prisoner waits their turn. Thrown into the cellar, he hears his own lips say: 'I want new sufferings, come quickly.' In hope for new sufferings he lies cradled, his lips speaking: 'Smile to your kingdom, blessed one.' Suffering as the only realm the prisoner can rule.

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